Hey there, friend.
I have had it on my heart and mind to write a short journal type entry every day. Kind of as a recap of my day and my response to any ups and downs that happened.
The day started out really funky and this was the second day in a row to be that way. Our smoke detector was very adamant about telling us that it’s on life support from 15 ft above us. The continuous chirping made for a very distracted Jesus time. And for some reason the thoughts of “I should be doing x,y,z right now or in this season” were bombarding every idea or plan for my morning. Before I knew it, I could sense the anxiety rising. Anxiety isn’t something that I usually struggle with. But with all the events going on right now such as saving for a vehicle, the possibility of moving apartments in the next few months, minor mistakes at work, my ming began to swirl.
I called Matt before going into work just to express how I was feeling. And I am not sure if it was a spiritual attack or what but I had felt very beaten down. His quick response of encouragement and prayer really lifted me. He shared a scripture with me Psalm 28:6-7, “The Lord is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in Him, and he helps me. My heart leaps for joy, and with my song I praise him.” After that I was able to recognize and rest in the power of the Word and sense his presence with me.
Community is so powerful and necessary to build the kingdom of God. We need each other and when we are alone that is when we are vulnerable to the attacks of enemy. Looking back, I’m thankful to have a husband who does his best to affirm and build me even when I feel less than or unworthy. He points me back to Christ who has never left my side and yours. He loves you with an everlasting love.
Have you ever thought about the unending love of God? His ability and willingness to love you always! Not only when you feel worthy of his love. His love doesn’t end when your “good works” or positive attitude/outlook do. His love doesn’t end when you feel like you are a failure and making mistakes constantly. His grace is sufficient to help in your time of need.
Take time this evening to read through Psalm 52:8-9 and Psalm 28:6-7. Allow his word to renew your mind and reveal a new perspective of his love towards you. Even try reading them in different versions, that always helps me to see it from a different angle.
Let me know if you are interested in staying with me through these daily posts as I learn more about the Lord and what he is teaching me daily.
Till next time!